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Tuesday

Another year older, and no deeper in debt. Can’t complain about that!

I keep remembering that I have a year’s income sitting in the bank, and that my sung affirmation “I now earn an excellent income, doing what I love to do, when I love to do it, where I love to do it; I’m living the life of my dreams” has come true. It took some time -- and not a lot, either, though it seemed forever when I was hating going to work -- but it did become reality.

I catch myself slipping back to my habitual way of thinking -- that I have to struggle to have enough money, or that I better carefully hang onto what I’ve got -- and then I remind myself that I am sitting pretty, and reaffirm that my life, and my cash flow, are healthy and abundant and *easy*, that it IS possible for ordinary lazy people like me to live the way they want to.

When I look at the fact that that affirmation has manifested into reality, I think it is foolish of me not to be doing affirmations still. It seems I only do them when I am in distress, under pressure or anxious. I need them when all is well, too. Or even if I don’t, they have creative power. Why not make use of them?

*****

Tend the Fire.

Telling words, there. We are not tending the fire nearly enough.

Fairly obvious what the next affirmation needs to affirm.

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The main floor of our house has one bedroom, which the boys share. The mainfloor living room is my office, complete with china cabinet and two chairs.

It opens up through an arched doorway into the kitchen, which is lined with dark wood panelling, hasn't enough counter space, and crowds the kitchen table.

We are dreaming about building a kitchen onto the porch and moving ourselves into a room on the main floor, and having a bedroom for each boy, too.

The new kitchen would be where the deck is now, out the porch door we use every day to go in and out. It's the only exterior door this house has.

There are a few things up in the air, so that we don't make a decision and go ahead. The tarot card suggests we go ahead "as if." It is the III of Pentacles, from the Morgan Greer deck.

Monday

As of the seventh hour this morning, I’ve been on this earth in this body for 44 years.

Forty-four is a number of great strength and power. How shall I celebrate?

Some remember. Two birthday cards have been sent on the Internet, one by my mom’s good friend and the other by my highschool buddy who always remembers.

Petra and Inez both phoned over the weekend to extend best wishes, and it would be unusual if Mom doesn’t call tonight.

My aunt phoned yesterday from Phoenix, but not to wish me a happy birthday. She wanted to tell me that my cousin is getting married in Ireland in May and Grandma wants to go and needs someone to accompany her. Can I think of anyone who might be able to go?

Well, I could, and that’s what she’s been hoping.

I’d love to be in Ireland, but I don’t want to do the travelling required to get there.

Surely if I wait another 44 years, we’ll come up with something faster and safer than airplanes and ships.

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I pull a card from the Legend deck, for today and what the year holds; for what it means to be 44.

11 Justice
(Lady of the Lake)

When reading for myself, it is sometimes easier to get the straight dope by reading the definitions rather than using intuition to glean the message of the card. It’s more objective, less conducive to wishful thinking or wilful blindness.

From the book, The Keeper of Words:

“Justice delivers total honesty and reveals the consequences of past actions. It represents receiving one’s just rewards. Achieving balance and harmony after toils and tribulations. Responsible conduct. Reaching a state of equilibrium with one’s self. Peace of mind. Making a well-balanced choice. Entering into an equal partnership. Being able to see both sides of a situation. Integrity and contracts. Reaching an agreement. The favourable outcome of a judicial matter.”

Paraphrased and quoted:

The Lady of the Lake represents cosmic law and is a reminder that there is a mightier court than the king’s justice. She weighs the virtues of sword and scabbard; the determination and decisive actions of the sword are in equilibrium with the mercy and protection of the scabbard. This represents a well-balanced person who can be entrusted to carry out responsibilities in an honourable manner.
The appearance of the Lady of the Lake signifies the workings of destiny and karma. For this reason, a sense of order and peace accompany this card’s presence.
Arthur represents a person who has matured and followed both his destiny and conscience and now receives recognition.