Some time ago I bought a charm shaped like the eternal knot, or auspicious knot, as I think it's sometimes called. At the time, I had no idea what it was; I just thought it looked pretty. Recently I saw it on the cover of a Pema Chödrön book I have, and I was moved to investigate it. Turns out there are several possible meanings, but the one I like most is "wisdom plus compassion." Something I've been keeping in mind as the legal business between R. and me progresses.

Grant is once again with R. today, and it's raining out. Actually, a few minutes ago it was pouring. I spent the morning on the phone with friends who love me, and who help me pass the first couple of hours of Grant's absence most weekends. These are good people, and I'm so blessed to have them in my life. Today is a good day, though, not one of those sad days, despite the prolific rain. I'm driving up to see my sister in Pasadena and the two of us are going to hit IKEA to look for furniture for my boy's bedroom. It's really a work in progress, and I'm excited about developing it further. Later, we'll go out to eat or something, and I'll spend the night. Tomorrow I'll help her clean her house for a women's group she's hosting later on, and we'll go to a Quaker meeting. She's been attending Quaker meetings for the past few months, inspired by my uncle's Quaker involvement prior to his death last year. His memorial was "in the manner of Friends," and Sis found it quite moving. I've been curious about it ever since, and tomorrow will be a good opportunity to see for myself what it's all about.

Anyway, I think Kate is due back any moment now. It's been a pleasure once again filling in for her during her absence, and I truly appreciate her generosity, letting me say a few words in her space.

Until we meet again, I wish you these things: strength, compassion, the ability to own your imperfections, the willingness to try new things, and love.

Always love.

- Beth