Thursday 27 Oct 2005
3:55 p.m.

Snapdragons are always the last flowers in bloom, aren't they? Except this year, strangely, against the east wall there is one stem of delphiniums that has just blossomed.

***

When I think of Mom
there is a wordless
solemnity
reality
chagrin

Others have felt it
and worse (death of a child)
but common experience of loss
doesn't make it easier

I am not alone in this
but there is only one mom
for me, that's all

It sucks

Yeah I am resigned to it
— she's gone — have to be
But it doesn't seem right

Nothing seems quite right
When I remember her gone.